lately i've been back there in my head.. to the winter place where i first discovered a home in self and a home in others. I've been wandering back there over and over, because I feel like a tree uprooted. I feel stunted in some way, or at least stunned... I feel so humbled... grounded in a way that feels neither "good" nor "bad," just footed. I feel so unsure of where I am or will be.. just a tree hanging in mid-air, waiting to be replanted.